ONE YEAR

Today I felt my heart decay.

It finally had come to realize that it cannot break another time.

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TODAY I NOTICED I HAVE BEEN ALIVE

... and what if all tears disappear in the rain

and every scream is drowned by the music I make,

no tomorrow ever felt welcome to me

and no kiss did excite me?

I’ve forgotten to feel,

I’ve unlearned how to breathe.

Didn’t even come to realize:

In my head I died a long time ago ...

Songwriting und Recording: Alex Vay

Mixing: Marcel Heinsch

Mastering: Dominik Back

Spezieller Dank an Noah Friebel und Celina Schaller für die Bereitstellung von Equipment.

... One year is not enough to see

you growing up beside me.

You were the child that adored all the games I created,

Never knowing I just did it

to see the light in your eyes.

And you’ve always seen

all the good in me ...

Videografie: Melvin Heinsch | Jasmin Curtz

Fotografie: Alex Vay | Jasmin Curtz

Licht: Jasmin Curtz

Schnitt: Alex Vay

... Today I noticed I’ve been alive one year more than I meant

more than I would have spent,

more days to remember,

more days to pretend

that my head holds no chaos

and my heart does not ache,

my skin is not crawling,

I do not depend

on pills that I treasure

like an old friend

’til one day I might say

I don’t want this to end.

All I fear - more.

All I want - more.